Flight of the Bumblebee

Years ago, in their drunken ignorance, a group of arrogant scientists decided that based on their size, shape, and their tiny wings that flight was impossible for bumblebees. Today, girls of size are often judged in the same way.

Truth be told, Bumblebees CAN and DO fly. Just because first glances and assumptions seem to point to one rule, one explanation, one scientific "law" with concrete proof doesn't mean that it is the truth. The bumblebee has a different structure, a different way of flying than their lighter, more amply winged counterparts.

And I, in the same way, took flight. Just as my coach, Susan Kane, described in her book, through many stories of many woman in many Danskin Triathlons, I too spread my wings and flew across the finish line.

Gimme my loot!

I can't wait for swagfest... erm... the expo tomorrow. I love free stuff. Love it love it love it :)

I need to pack, so better get to it! :)

Transitions...

Just like any good triathlete, I'm made a successful transition today. Yesterday, I had 10 panic attacks, including one right before our last open swim training last night. After some supportive words from my coach and workout leaders and a few minutes in the water I was much better. Despite being at least 200 yards behind the rest of the group when I started my swim, I finished about a pool length behind the majority of the group.

Today, I made the transition from panic to excitement. And now I'm moving into anxious. I want it to be Sunday and I want to be doing the tri. I want to be walking to the finish line, arms linked with the girls like the Monkees hooting and hollering and screaming to the crowds that we are triathletes :)

Freaking

So, this time next week, CoCo and I will be puking our guts out, freaking out about the tri the next morning. It's gonna take me about 3 Ambien to get a decent night's sleep... I'm excited but scared. I mean, what if this was a huge mistake? What if I should never have gotten myself into this. It has been a huge investment on my part... Time, money, energy, etc. I'm not sure if I have prepared myself mentally as much as I have physically. I rode 19 miles this morning without stopping. I couldn't have done that 6 months ago. I ran for about 7 minutes the other day on the treadmill, and that was AFTER 2.5 other hours of workouts spread out over the day. I have come so far in such a small amount of time, but I'm scared that it won't be enough.

I know that this is just my fear of failure rearing its ugly head. I know it's just my own lack of self-esteem. But I'm so nervous. I can't wait to be with CoCo, Alana, Lesli and Lynn, all chillin in the hotel room, sharing the nervousness and the excitement, looking over all of our loot and waiting to wear the finisher's medals around our necks. That's what I need to remember -- how good it will feel to cross that line and be told that I "am a great triathlete".

Dang....

I wore my hair down today for the first time in a while... It's getting LONG...

Oh, and then I was having fun with Photo Booth. They have this cool setting called "Glow" and it made me look uber-goth. Too bad I can't look this good for real!!!!